The sweeping insensitivity of this still life

Day 135 One Step Closer

2010-05-19T09:40:00.000-07:00

you're so perfect, its hard to believe
hihihihii :)

---

When I find myself fading, I close my eyes and realize my best friends are my energy.
You know who you are <3 :)

Day 134

2010-05-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry?
Would the rules change up or would they still apply if I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy.

--

Finally, I'm really really really happy :)

Day 133

2010-04-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

Only 3 things to keep in mind:
1) prayers
2) hope
3) patience

---

Ouh Mai Gats, aduhaaaiii rindunyerrrrrr ;(

Day 132

2010-04-27T03:43:00.000-07:00

My life has had the worst bumps ever and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right? If only we'd stop being difficult and just be happy, I think we'd have a pretty good time. Happiness, it seems to me, consists of two things: first, in being where you belong, and second -- and best -- in comfortably going through everyday life, that is, having had a good night's sleep and not being hurt by anyone or me hurting anyone for that matter.

If you want to be happy, be.

(MOM)

& she's right.. cuz in the end, nobody really cares if I'm miserable,so I might as well be happy.

no matter what happens,

Happiness is a choice :)

Day 131

2010-04-18T00:34:00.000-07:00

i love you! :)

Day 130

2010-04-02T02:09:00.000-07:00

Guess who? ;)

Happy Birthday my sayang, Liselle Chung a.k.a big and chungkeh.

You're one of the funniest person I've ever met in my life

The fact that you're funny Accidentally makes my day even better :P heh.

U R DA L to the SML. vi rock.

lickssssssssss <3>

(p.s: paham tak?)

if ur facing any prob, u can always talk to me :) I'm always here for you please remember that kay. Wtv happens, I will selalu sayang you a lot MUAAAAAAAH

Happy Birthday my 15 yr old LickyChung

&hearts

Day 129

2010-03-31T05:44:00.000-07:00

No more slacking, i promise.

from now on its gonna be, books books books.

adios

Day 128

2010-03-18T07:05:00.000-07:00

if only you'd understand.

Day 127

2010-03-12T04:18:00.000-08:00

I miss you so much. :,(

never ever ever be apart

Hiiii blogbugs. Exams are finally overrrr, kinda happy with my results so far :) :) Cud have done better tho..... Anyway, after much contemplations, I wanna get two things out and clear-

1) i hate it when people interfere with my personal life. if you're not close to me then buzz off.

2) please don't judge me by the fun things i do cuz as long as i succeed in what im suppose to be succeeding in, then that gives you totally zero rights to be on my case.

i'm nice if you're nice.

end of story

Day 126

2010-03-07T00:09:00.000-08:00

Heyyo :) I know I haven't been posting since forever but I'll try to do as frequent as possible soon :) Been busy with school and with people that I L.O.V.E. So many great things have happened this year, but I'm so malas to actually list them down here, cuz if that's the case, then this post will never end hehe. Let's see now... well next tuesday is my 1st sem examination, and today is sunday so that gives me a complete 1 and a half day left to study :) next wud be the holidays, then its games carnival weeeeeee! can't wait....:)

love this, love life, love you.

;)

Day 125

2009-12-31T03:11:00.001-08:00

happy new year :)
muahxz.

Day 124: 5th October 09*****

2009-10-05T06:38:00.000-07:00

Today is a very special date ;)

---

Anyway,

I've turned on my study switch at 9.40 p.m today.

Meaning no more lazy sya. It is now rajin sya.

finals baby here I come :D

---

i miss you so much.

can't wait for penang <3333333

Day 123: for ever and ever and ever and ever

2009-10-01T02:20:00.000-07:00

I'm grateful for all my wonderful friends

that I surround everyday.

You know who you are :) :) :) :)

<3>

YOU.ME.FOREVER

;)

Day 122: vengaboys

2009-09-22T21:13:00.001-07:00

BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM

i want you in my room

lets spend the night together;

from now until forever.

;)

Day 121: MAHALABIA IS BLISS<333333

2009-09-05T01:43:00.000-07:00

Friday was totally nice :) :) :) :)

from morning till night

love you adina :)

ana bahibak kiteer

hehe, always :)

Day 120: Braaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaainss

2009-08-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

Friday was fantazztic.

:] :] :] :] :] :] :] :]

Love you to bits Diana.

---

School's starting 2moro! :)

woots woots

you had me at hello

Day 119: If you were a booger I'd pick you first.

2009-08-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

Hello :) My days have been pretty exciting and the same time its kinda boring.... anyway, I DID MY HALF RAYA SHOPPING ON TUESDAY!! :) yes yes about the other half..... sya needs MORE hehe. Altho it was a 5 hr shopping on a Puasa day but it was just me, mom and dad's Amex ;) so you could actually imagine, ---happy but exhausted :) :) :) :)

Anyway, gonna have buka puasa with Diana this friday at Palace of the Golden Horses. Yippeeeeeeeeeee x12398712201302399219812931231430957894 it's been so long :) :) :)

Recently, I'm trying to not care so much of how some people are treating me. So I guess you won't be seeing anymore emo posts around here! :)

PS: he.likes.me. yowza

oh i'm sorry.

did i....

...disappoint you?

buzz off shrew.

Day 118: When God made you, he was showing off.

2009-08-24T02:28:00.000-07:00

Apart from being sexy,

what do you do for a living?

;)

Day 117: I love my friends. :)

2009-08-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

Stupid eyes.

---

I can't wait for puasa.

Ramadan Mobarak to all! :)

then its RAYA,

finals and more boring holidays.

My life is kinda at balance. Both good & bad things happened today.

I appreciate everyone around me. =)

am so lucky to have great friends surrounding me everyday.

Love love love love love you guys x99999999999999999912393789238856

p.s: i'm currently working on a collage with pictures of friends etc.

so till then, stick around ;)

Day 116: Girl, you make me go crazy.

2009-08-20T06:45:00.000-07:00

UGH.

these days i've been feeling nothing other than-

BENGANG.

*like first they're all so nice to you.

and the next minute

they're gone.

wtbulls.

i'll keep pretending i don't mind.

you can continue treating me like I'm just another backup friend of yours, when nobody is around for you to enjoy life with.

i have feelings too you know...

so emo ady.

i have my times

you'll have yours too.

don't worry

Day 115: If that ain't love then I don't know what love is

2009-08-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

My weekend was sensational to the max.

How about you?
;)

<3333333333333333

Day 114: Attraction is not a choice

2009-08-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

My life is soooo asdjkdf;skfadhfkaj;sgdajsgfgdd.

Day 113

2009-08-07T20:55:00.000-07:00

Yesss. Finally some love :)
you & i = chemistry

hehe

Day 112 : Don't worry. I won't confront you.

2009-08-05T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hi :)
Bye.

---
I know your jealous.
I could achieve so much more.
But I'm holding back- taking it easy for now.
I don't want no hatred from nobody.
Especially not from you

Hello sweetie. Cut the trash. You want a real rival?
I'll give you one.
#$%^ % *@

Pls.
Stop.
Pretending.
Like.
I
Don't.
Exist.

Cuz baby girl,
Karma. Will. Get. You.
Muahxz

Day 111

2009-08-02T17:25:00.000-07:00

Omg.
So.
Sleepy.

&

I still haven't given Manda her birthday present.
:'( so typical argh. sorry!

***
Things to look for:
2nd Sem Holidays!!!
BBQ with tha Bajenids :)
shopping spree(its that time of the year again...)

best part of all-
NO 2nd Sem Examinations.
and I'm out.

Day 110

2009-07-24T02:39:00.001-07:00

Grr, no comment.

You will always be in my heart ;)

hehehe

ps: Happy birthday Amanda Tiew. I <3 you :)

Day 109

2009-07-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

Dear god.
Just this once.
Please let me have what i want most.

men fadlik mom :'(
i would do anything and everything
to make this work.

...

Day 108

2009-07-21T07:38:00.000-07:00

Every time you smile.
my.heart.goes
THUMP.

-i think...
i'm in love

feels so right.
when it's not
:|

Day 107

2009-07-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

sya loves you

:)

Day 106

2009-07-15T04:24:00.000-07:00

140709 Commencements Honours List:

Silver Awards: Top Student In Each Year
Form 1: Natasya bt. Muhammad Syafiq Baljit
Form 2: Chin Yoxin
Form 3: Chua Yoong Wei
Form 4 Sc: David Kam Kia Wei
Form 4 Comm: Seah Li Peng
Form 5 Sc: Shalini Ravishanker
Form 5 Comm: Seah Li Ling

---

OMG :D
HARDWORK PAID OF!!
..well almost ;)

---

Hello m8s. My day went very well. One good thing after anotha. + there was no Agama. hehe. And for dinner I'm having Noodles with Crabs. Like omg rite, how pleasant can this day get.

++The date for Commencements has been changed to 30th of July, Thursday.
which is the day that MY MOM AND DAD ARE BOTH AVAILABLE.

thank you God :)

Day 105

2009-07-14T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hi :D

---

Omg watching Psycho IV right now.

I'm watching alone btw

so yea....

super freaky ok.

but nothing beats Saw 5

..seriously.

here's the thing-

few days back, I was watching Saw 5 at night with my cousin, Yazid.

Few hours after that, around 12 a.m. ,

the movie played by itself on the screen of his handphone.

I WAS PRACTICALLY DYING.[well almost]

& then we heard someone slamming the door upstairs.

but there was nobody upstairs :'(

that was it.

ok Psycho IV is still on.

omg psychopaths are so scary O:

k he's sewing his mom's stomach now.

gudbye

Day 105

2009-07-14T05:03:00.000-07:00

Hi :D

---

Omg watching Psycho IV right now.
I'm watching alone btw
so yea....
super freaky ok.
but nothing beats saw 5
..seriously.
here's the thing-

few days back, I was watching Saw 5 at night with my cousin, Yazid.
Few hours after that, around 12 a.m. the movie played by itself on the screen of his handphone.

I WAS PRACTICALLY DYING.
& then we heard someone slamming the door upstairs.
that was it.

ok psycho IV is still on.
omg psychopaths are so scary O:
k he's sewing his mom's stomach now.
gudbye

day 104

2009-07-11T21:32:00.000-07:00

Hi :)

I'll have a proper update soon enuff k

xoxo

Day 103

2009-05-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

---

OMG.HE.CONFESSED.

Day 102

2009-05-25T02:41:00.000-07:00

Hello losers.

I'm not going to update till the end of finals.

Bye.

Day 101

2009-05-17T02:34:00.000-07:00

Hi.

***YAZID BAJENID HAS OFFICIALLY WON 1ST PLACE FOR YAMAHA SL GO-KART RACE BELOW 15 in SEPANG***

holy shiz, so proud of you nephew!! You know I love you :)

I'll see you soon k.

Muahxz

Day One Hundred

2009-05-13T05:45:00.001-07:00

Hello babies.

To sum up all my weeks 'going ons', this is what I came up with;

Never explain yourself to anyone

Because the person who likes you doesn't need it,

and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.

Muahxz

Day Ninety-nine

2009-05-11T06:24:00.000-07:00

Hello Mr. Confusion.

***

I watched X-men again yesterday in Pav. There were so many arabs there. Sya like ;)

Yesterday was the day I bought my first wallet. Yes very ironic, mother's day and she ended up getting me something well done sya. -After that, the night went mostly like this,"Okay mmy, here's some fresh money from my new wallet i bought 5 minutes ago"etc. lols, all in all it was a very pleasant night.

What else?

Oh right, I fell asleep around 2 and when I woke up-- I stared at the mirror for awhile. I really thought it was a dream..it seemed somehow I have scratched my cheek so hard at one particular spot[cut short]-there was dried blood all over. It was very uncanny as this has never ever occurred to me before... Imagine all the agony I had to go through to stay out of the sun so my complexion would be better[as I'm allergic to the sun] and it was clearing so well and bam--sheep happens. Aite life's not too good right now. Mid year's next week so excited la k. I can't went to go to Bali with tha troops!! :] Omgimissyazidsomuch.

*might not go to school tomorrow I need a lot of time I can get to study.

starting from now.

Day Ninety-eight

2009-05-10T00:35:00.001-07:00

I'm so enraged at you.

Yet you still appear in my dream every night.

so corny la k.

***

Lately, I've come to realize that few girls in my skul have issues with their moods and how they act towards people who are ranked slightly lower than them or in this case, much much lower than me ;). I mean srsly, it's not like we have PMS every day right... Especially this one typical girl who acts by her own means depending on her mood. If she's older than me I would partially understand but bloody hell she's just 14. A very ugly one too ;) Lols, please la. Don't make people hate you- specifically not me.

***

ANYWAY, I've finally understand circles!!! So happy k, my father taught me[like finally]- and I understood immediately. Yeehaw.

:] And I've also finish writing a song.

Lovely lyrics & it blends so well with the piano <3333

Back to Mid Year

---

XOXO

Day Ninety-seven

2009-05-06T08:33:00.000-07:00

No one understands me anymore.

...

Day Ninety-six

2009-05-02T00:21:00.000-07:00

Of course I could find a photo of him with a shirt on but where's the fun in that? Hehehehe hot gila right? Drools.

W.O.L.V.E.R.I.N.E
another word for
M.R.S.E.X.Y.A.S.H.E.L.L

My brother is currently looking at this post.

Help. Me. He. Won't. Stop. Indicating.
That. Mr. Sexy. Is.
Not. Sexy. O:

Stupid brother.

HUGH JACKMAN.
is officially the

2nd man of my dreams.
in line with
Mr. SmexyJACK BLACK.
Eheheh ;)

Day Ninety-five

2009-04-30T23:45:00.000-07:00

Only as bright as you want me to be. :)

Imma happy child again.

Day Ninety-four

2009-04-29T08:22:00.000-07:00

There's only 1 thing
2 do
3 words 4 you
I love you.

lols
:]

So I did something with my hair. Can't say much about it tho... Aites today was my off day. Meaning, I did nothing enervating besides studying ;) so many stuff to study la k. Srsly cannot wait for Mid Year to end. - WHY THA HELL is my brother being so obnoxious lately. I feel like taking a knife and slit his throat. But I can't[which sucks] cuz I would end up in court[which sucks] also means I would be in jail[which sucks] and muh mom will hate me for life[you tell me] ;) K la enough gibberish for the night. It's 12 am. I'm suppose to 'pretend' to be sleeping on my bed right now yet here I am. WHO THA HELL SLEEPS THIS EARLY?

Off to jam with muh midnight club I hope my mom doesn't find out nights fellas.

Day Ninety-three

2009-04-25T09:51:00.000-07:00

I give up.

Day Ninety-two

2009-04-21T06:10:00.000-07:00

One thing I cannot abide is fibbing.
life's not too good
you are one big mess sya.

Need to calm down, too much tension going on.
out

Day Ninety-one

2009-04-18T07:44:00.000-07:00

Saher you tha man. sexy boy talk so much ended up losing 2-1
mur'ib amti'ah, anta massa ;)

***

Went for IU day today. Conclusion? None looked like how they appear to be in myspace. Surprise surprise. Ehehehe just got back from soccer 5 mins ago. Now its 11.30 yeh baby night soccer = tha bomb. I did a lot today, feeling so zonked right now. My bed awaits bon voyage babies

Day Ninety

2009-04-15T20:54:00.000-07:00

In skul right now.

***
I'M GOING TO IU DAY wuts wuts
my mom said if my bro goes then I can go
and I managed to force him to go ;)
so uh wtv.

Today there is piano class for 3 hours O: die die die.
Today is also dad's birthday
hehe meaning there will be cakes and food
also means
I will have more time to pick up and outfit for tomorrow eleh
hehehehe out losers.

btw

Dearest Adina, I have a little something something for you :]

Day Eighty-nine

2009-04-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

Oh muh fizzzzzzzz

***

So much has happened. I think. & I figured out a way how to reach deep inside my soul and actually feel it . Feel what Sya? That kind readers is classified ;) Seriously, this is not a gag. I really felt it. Ok wtvs. I miss Amaani so much and Yazid and Zuhair and Anis and Abdulah and Ahmed and Hameed and Muhamad omg. I earnestly cannot wait for Mid Year to start and conclude. Then I will have all the time in the world to have sexy time with mih cousins. So excited la k. Already started hittin' the books. Ngeh ngeh ngeh

OMGOMGOMG
JACK BLACK IS SO HOT
jables<3

Day Eighty-eight

2009-04-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

In Penang baby [:

Omg why la guys so flirtatious online. Chatting with Faroq and Sean right now. Faroq's a sweet guy but Sean?! Heh nvm. I wanted to watch Unborn in Queensbay Mall. Turns out that Penang people are too faint-hearted, NO UNBORN IN PENANG?! sheeshkebab. Kay wtv, my violin practical exam is on the 27th of April btw. No wonder I've been feeling so edgy lately. & then my piano practical would be around August. Mummy said if I get a merit or distinction, I could take up jazz for piano and also get my own guitar. Hehe <333333333

***

I seriously cannot maneuver friends who doesn't back stab. It makes me feel so shabby. I'm a natural born backstabber. It's nothing to be proud of.. just that it's what I am. So friends out there, I don't really care how close you are to me. If you're worth backstabbing then I'm sorry :]

(does not apply to Amanda Tiew)

Bnatch in tha house heheh nights fellas

Day Eighty-seven

2009-04-09T05:49:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG

the good: I get to go to Penang again tomorrow

the bad: I FREAKING GONNA MISS YEHBONNE'S PARTY & SLEEPOVER.

soooooooooooooooo sad
Whatever it is, I love you Bonnie hehe :]
I'll make it up to you kays? <3

***
Life has been... no comment.

Day Eighty-six

2009-04-08T05:25:00.000-07:00

& no one will ever know.

***
I feel like cursing every member of the human race;
but still feel exceedingly livid.

I want so much more.

***

whatevs. Today was fine - felt very chagrined tho grr. Wtf is wrong with me. I don't want to sound ungrateful, but speaking plainly, I'm tired of being unhappy. What difference does it make; why do I feel this way?

#@#$%^%$@

Day Eighty-Five

2009-04-06T04:19:00.000-07:00

My one and only

Hello dweebs. I don't have much updates. Lately, I've been wanting to watch The Unborn so badly but there's no one valiant enough to watch it with me. Not even my own parents heh. I will still watch it tho, somehow, someday with someone :] :] :] :] :] :] Ok whatevs, I've decided that I'm gonna double my study time and reduce the time I waste to play soccer, sleep etc. Also means I'm gonna spend one hella of a time with delightful, yummy books. Nice huh? I want the best results I could achieve this Mid-Year.

***
Nothing feels good anymore.

Day Eighty-four: On the verge...

2009-04-02T19:17:00.000-07:00

of abandoning life.

***
Why can I never do anything right.
Yesterday was a nightmare.
the end

***
Frisbee tomorrow. Don't know why but this time we're very confident that the 1st placing is ours <333333333333

Day Eighty-three: FAME.

2009-04-01T04:14:00.000-07:00

Sups.

Nothing much happened in life lately. There's only Games Carnival going on. So far, BERUANG is having a tie with Helang hehe kiss the reds and greens goodbye fellas. Tomorrow there's basketball for girls, I really hope we get 1st or 2nd cuz we so need it. & there's also Fame voice audition tomorrow yikes the pressure. BTW Amanda, I signed your name up on the list <333333333333 I think you forgot or something? hehe all the best baby :]

Day Eighty-two: Let's just fake it.

2009-03-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

Howdy readers.

Yesterday I switched off my lights like any other normal human beings in the world would do which makes my neighbor abnormal. She actually thought that the TNB was gunna cut the electric current and therefore she waited and waited for earth hour and she presumed it was delayed etc. Heheh, funny humans. Yesterday was also Hanna's birthday :] I think she received way lot of presents than I did when I was her age. Most of her presents had something to do with this year's birthday theme, "Dora, the Explorer". And she got her first barbie doll so sweet kan? :] :] :] :]
Then at night, we had our dinner during Earth Hour, candles everywhere. & Danial did a few magic tricks which weren't bad but weren't good either hehe. -Went to the cinemas and watched Knowing after that. I cried at the last bit, it was a very depressing movie. And what's even more depressing is that I found out that Frisbee will be on Saturday not Thursday. THE HELL!!! Now my excursion to Penang is gonna be right after Frisbee and I'll be back on the night of 7th April, Tuesday. Already got the airlines ticket hehe whoopdeedoooooo

***

Beruang all tha way baby!!!

Day Eighty-one: Ugh spiteful, just spiteful.

2009-03-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means.

***

Today was very different. For some queer reasons, I was very open[which was not good] Too many things running on my mind, why why why why why. These are a few of the significant things that's been going through my mind today: I think I have a weak heart. I can't wait for the world to end. My Nikon is back[yay]. I'm not satisfied with life. I want so much more. I believe in everything and anything. I've always tried my best to be congenial but the arrow on my temper-o-meter usually goes beyond the limit , if this happens then, I'm sorry- you will go through a terrifying state of uneasiness for about a week[that if I've met you in person]. Holy shoes O:

***
Who let thefemaledogs out?
Escuzi miss, I believe I've had enough of your sardonic comments. I was very civil to you yet you lay me with your pathetic derision. You have no idea what unpleasant things I could do to you. Stop the irony, you try so hard to be glorified by others whaddehell la woman if you don't like me just tell me. Giving me names shows that you're nothing but a piteous coward. 'Nuff said

***
Frisbee match on Thursday.
GO BERUANG<3

Day Eighty: Just futile

2009-03-25T03:58:00.000-07:00

This is so sad.

My dad canceled my flight to Penang last few minutes cuz he wanted me to stay for Hanna's birthday. I was at mute for over 4 hours. Two weeks! Two weeks they promised I could go if I do well in exams and I think I did. Baba said I could go next week and skip 3 days of school. It's just the thought of it tho... on the brighter side, since I'm not flying anywhere also means since I won't be missing my piano classes grr, I have to beautify my music pieces-would be fun[i think].

* * *
Exams was okay. I scored a 39/40 for my science paper 1. Felt so cheery ladida :]
Might not go to school tomorrow,
muh brain needs a rest.
& that's it

XOXO

Day Seventy-nine: Out out out

2009-03-22T01:36:00.002-07:00

Ok this is so sad. The world hates me and the worst part is that I now know why. I feel so dizzy right now cuz the people around me has cause me to be in a state that involves major confusion, jealousy and pure bafflement. My hands are shaky, every time I type a letter. I've come to reckon that being nice is all it takes to be liked by everyone- well almost. I feel like screaming my lungs out and to sleep not to ever wake up. & that time would stop and rewind those mean steps I've took without thinking of the circumstances that might occur to the people I'm hurting. It's like I'm a whole different person when I'm angry or sad. I am so so so sorry. No grudges kay, I feel so sad if anyone hates me. Just like that, I'm a sad despairing child if I know I'm hated by a person typically a girl. Sorry

- - - -

Stay away.

Day Seventy-eight: Trifles.

2009-03-20T04:33:00.000-07:00

Write drunk; edit sober.

Hi. Life's been really enervating with lots of books and little children running around. Not much updates actually, I'm just soooooo looking forward to my excursion in Penang. It's all planned- skipping class next thursday and friday and most probably the following monday. Ehehehe :] I really hope my exam marks this time won't be so much of a letdown & destroy the thrill of my parentsfree-vacation wtf.

Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.

Day Seventy-seven: Shorty wanna thug

2009-03-19T22:05:00.000-07:00

So happy
muh homer is back.
<3333333333

Day Seventy-six: Shut up and let me go

2009-03-19T09:59:00.000-07:00

"Whenever a friend succeeds, a little something in me dies."
Gore Vidal

...

I can't wait till exams are over.
& out to the movies i go.
with Amaani and pals.
all the way to Penang
why is time so slow
please help me
oh kind kind,
Lord.

the end.
nights

Day Seventy-five: I write sins not tragedies

2009-03-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

Ring my bell.

How revolting. Why do I have to be sick during tha holidays? Especially when I need to study[with a healthy, working brain of course] heh, luck is never on my side for the past months. WHY?! Muh violin exams in on tha 27th of April. If God is willing, I need a merit or a disctinction. Hopefully, luck will decide to show some solicitous mercy & I will get my very own guitar. Anyway, back to my glutinous muzzle grr who de hell would have thought that playing futsal in the rain could cause all this agony. :( Heal nose, heal!!

Chase you down.

You'll see. I _ will make all of you feel soo sad.
just like how you guys have made me.

One man's pleasure is another man's pain.
You get where this is going right?

Day Seventy-four: Touch my soul

2009-03-13T06:22:00.000-07:00

LG.

Day Seventy-three: Starstruck

2009-03-12T05:08:00.001-07:00

Groove.Slam.Work it back.Filter that.Baby bump that track.
Yazid & Zuhair on Saturday
<3

Day Seventy-two: Normal

2009-03-10T03:07:00.002-07:00

The only girl I love in every way.

I'm gunna win big time.

just wait

Day Seventy-two

2009-03-10T03:07:00.000-07:00

Day Seventy-one: Hello Ms. Fraudster.

2009-03-07T05:24:00.000-08:00

Ehehehehehe.

Feel me?

Day Seventy: Tha Ultimate

2009-03-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

BOO!
finally an update.

So WMD(world math's day) was the awesome. Lovin maths so much now hehe. Anyway, I'm so excited for my cousin's wedding this sunday and monday-omigoddddd finally get to meet all my relatives round tha world baby. :] :] :] :]

then Monday is a holiday. Pheeeewit
& here comes the exams, completely gunna destroy my moods.
Imagine 1 week of holidays replaced by total studying back to back. :(

OK moving on- The bridesmaid's gown is so pretty!
Arab's wedding westernize :] Good in a way and also bad.
Not much to say.

That's it
<333333

Day Sixty-nine

2009-02-26T03:21:00.001-08:00

When it's good, it's so good until it goes bad.
just like that

maybe it's time to change
?

Day Sixty-eight: Cope with you

2009-02-25T02:02:00.000-08:00

Ok this sucks.

Day Sixty-seven: Introspection.

2009-02-24T02:01:00.000-08:00

Hello fellow readers. Today was not bad- school was a tad painful. [skip skip skip]

-I got home with high hopes and big dreams of something that cannot be mentioned here. I'm starting to believe that everything can be achieved if you work for it. And all this while, I haven't started working for anything hmm maybe tonight or tomorrow I'll start. & bamm baby you ain't see nothing yet ;)

So...

Let it out;

Why the hell bother being so nice when you'll end up being treated badly heh Sya? & the best part is that when I get home, muh stupid brain keeps recalling and thinking and feeling bad and annoyed and sad and depressed and troubled and down the drain because I feel so sad when somebody dislikes me. There simple as that. I HATE IT WHEN SOMEBODY DISLIKES ME. That's how my life works- you hate me, I'll be sad. But I won't hate you back. I think I need hersheys OR a cup of hot coco.

I can't take this anymore.

Day Sixty-six: Skrew it.

2009-02-23T04:28:00.000-08:00

Why me?

Day Sixty-five: Hello Pretty Monday

2009-02-22T18:56:00.001-08:00

You spin my head right round, right round.

Swimming gala was the awesome! Beruang booth made a lot of $$. hehe

The good:
Today started out well. Woke up at 8++ and had breakfast with mom and dad. Then they said I could go lepak with my cousins in either Pav or Bangsar awwwww so nice all of a sudden. Now it's 11 am and this means an hour and a half till chilling out. :]

The bad:
I want a ps3 :( :( :( :( . Desperately need to play Gta 4, guitar hero etc. Ma mom gave me a big no cause she wants me to concentrate on my studies. Heh ?! & there was Danial smiling out of padan muka. :( :( :( :(

Day Sixty-four: Nobody knows

2009-02-21T01:20:00.000-08:00

I have to pretend

to be strong.

Day Sixty-Three: Ain't no stressing

2009-02-19T03:24:00.000-08:00

Hahahhaha perasan gila nak mati weh
Ms, I practically do not care whaddehell you do with your life
Savvy?
:]

* * *

Just got back from violin class! It was surprisingly unexpectedly good. Hehe all my hard work of practicing totally paid off. Happy happy-

Anyway, I've finally finished writing a song with music notes and stuff. It's not bad and I've tried playing it on both piano and guitar, went pretty well. That's it for now I guess nothing much happened today.

XOXO

Day Sixty-Two: Thoughts and doubts

2009-02-18T01:54:00.000-08:00

Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing.

Malicious satisfaction.

Nothing much happened today. Another tiring day, almost slept in class. hehehhe stopped at Starbucks after school. Had a drink and a doughnut. Got home, practiced violin for 3 straight hours, my neck and wrist muscles hurt a lot. :(

Anyway, I've been very grossed out with the way couples are acting these days. I mean cuddling in school? Ew. Playing with your partner's stomach? Ewwer. Ish perangai tak tentu umur, tak tentu tempat. So young yet so stupid, live your age fellows ;)

XOXO

Day Sixty-one: Dare to be different.

2009-02-17T02:37:00.000-08:00

Got nerve?

Today was super tiring and irritating. The usual. & after school rained like nonsense. I like the rain so no complains over here :] Went home had violin for tea and piano for dinner. Yummy - - -
Ok whatever I can't wait to meet Amaani and her bro 2 weeks from now hehehe and this means GTA MIDNIGHT CLUB GUITAR HERO-ing the whole week-day and night baby.

and i'm out.

Day Sixty: Uhuh get a grip girl

2009-02-16T02:28:00.000-08:00

"I remember a time when everybody I loved hated me because I hated them."

John Lennon

I'm nothing like you.

Hello everyone. Today started out okay. Don't know why; I just felt like laughing the whole day BUT no one to laugh with heh :( Ok moving on- piano classes. I wonder why was my teacher so moody today? Lots of stuff to practice and memorize in so little time. & my mom wants me to cut down on my daily activities eg: futsal after school so I could spend more time with my fellow instruments. I really really hope she was just kidding

Like it or leave it

I've been thinking. Do a person act tha same with different people? 'cos I know I don't. & when do you hate someone or rather dislike, would you stop smiling at the person or fake it? 'cos I fake it. Another, do you tend to be what certain people want you to be- I know I do.

Life has been fair so far
Let's see how long it stays this way
XOXO

Day Fifty-Nine: Roses=satisfaction

2009-02-13T01:12:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's everyone!
Especially to tha love of my life-
Little Miss Amanda Tiew
hehehehe love you lots sayang!

Day Fifty-Eight: & they call me a _.

2009-02-12T01:16:00.000-08:00

School was super duper annoying.

Homer :'(

Day Fifty-Seven: Hello

2009-02-10T01:17:00.000-08:00

Hi.
I am Sya
I like to listen.
I have really dark secrets-
that most probably could ruin your lives.

* * *
Jeez I'm startin to hate 2009

يرجى إله العزيزة ، يجعل من هذا العام الكامل بركة والمحبة والسلام

Day Fifty-Six: Accomplished

2009-02-08T02:37:00.001-08:00

Dear Homer
Today was nice

Day Fifty-Five: 14th Birthday

2009-02-06T20:06:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was very pleasant

I had no idea my family were having a surprise party for mih :']
hehehehehe<3

Oh & Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes and presents!
xoxo

Day Fifty-Four: I don't want to grow up.

2009-02-05T00:50:00.000-08:00

Dear Homer
Tomorrow will be my 14th birthday
Another year older, another foot taller
:]

Day Fifty-Three: This is the way I live.

2009-02-04T02:36:00.000-08:00

Hello fellow readers & Homer<3

Good news!
I think I'm in _.
hahahaha yeah right

* * *
Can't wait for this Sunday!
Klcc.Lunch.Movie.Starbucks.Lepak
Please please please make it k guys :]
xoxo

Day Fifty-Two: Hello Mr. Brightside

2009-02-03T04:14:00.000-08:00

Homer- the love of my life.

hehehehehe

* * *
Right. Today was the average.
And it was Jason Mraz for tha whole day ♥
'nuff said

Day Fifty-One: A change.

2009-02-02T01:42:00.000-08:00

Oh the horror. So many things to practice/study in so little time. Hello life. Anyway, I've developed a new sense of attitude. Don't care? Thought so. 4 more days till my birthday and I don't feel like having a party. I might even consider canceling it. Oh great sya just great.

يا الله ، لماذا الجميع حتى غضب والغبية هذه الأيام؟
and why do I always have to be the person that has to cope with this?
Oh Homer, I need you back.

Day Fifty: Uh oh cliché

2009-01-31T05:09:00.000-08:00

اعتقد انني مثلك
hehehehehe

Day Forty-Nine: Dreams and thoughts

2009-01-30T01:40:00.000-08:00

Finally- home sweet home (=

Everything went super interesting.

Homer!! My mom said she will take my iPod(and make it hers) and buy me the latest generation. How magical can this holiday gets hmm? hehe, love you.

* * *
Ya sakin khayali
always.

Day Forty-Eight: The little things that keeps me thinking

2009-01-26T20:15:00.000-08:00

I wonder.
Bad ass sounds sexy.
I think I know what I want
But when's the right time?
Valentines maybe?
hehe, go on sya.
you know you're gonna do it.
then do it right
go beyond your own expectations for once.
surprise yourself
ok, it's confirm. I'll do it
;)

Homer, have faith in me.

Day Forty-Seven: Happy Hazardous

2009-01-26T05:36:00.000-08:00

Today was one word fun.
Hihi, Ian Aiman's my Homer Simpson.
<33333

* * *
Here we go again.
- Because you are different, and I happen to enjoy different.
go sya

I'll upload the picture of the eclipse soon! It's really awesome and pretty. Btw, have anyone seen my actual Homer Simpson? He's been gone for awhile now =(

Day Forty-Six: This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race

2009-01-25T20:18:00.000-08:00

I'm not a shoulder to cry on
But, I digress

* * *

Homer & I wish you gays a Happy Chinese New Year! =)
Next: My 14th birthday on 6th of Feb, Friday :D:D:D

Day Forty-Five: Me, you and my medication.

2009-01-23T07:18:00.000-08:00

We're all addicted to something

Day Forty-Five: :'(

2009-01-23T03:11:00.001-08:00

I cried.
continuously

Gaza don't deserve all this death. The Egyptians, Palestinians and Arabs- thousands died, one bomb and poof, everything's gone. It's the end of the world. Millions of Muslims are killed day by day. I'm very emotionally religious with all this stuff 'cause I'm an Arab you see; & I can't handle the part where my own grandmother keeps calling my mom everyday- crying her heart out. Tears flowing down my cheeks while I pray.
Until all this is over, I won't ever smile.

امين

Day Forty-Four: Breakeven

2009-01-22T16:30:00.000-08:00

Somethingdifferent
-Wanting something I can't have. Wanting to be someone I cannot be. Life's not fair, 'cause if it is I wouldn't be writing this right now. My life has changed a lot for the past years. I learned to lie- too fake my feelings and a smile. I cut my hair short because 'I lost a bet'(don't ask). I judge people by their cover. I know I'm right. And in the end it turns out right.

Here I am; feeling sorry for myself(yet again) Homer, help me.

Day Forty-Three: Deja vu

2009-01-21T22:40:00.000-08:00

Oh my.
It's repeating.
This sucks.
you're flying moods are a waste of my time

Go Homer.
Guess what sexy, today it's violin classes, homework homework and homework. ;) Something new huh?
(= I <3 you

Day Forty-Two: Stupid but funny.

2009-01-21T04:49:00.000-08:00

Seah Luoh Chuin, when will you learn to stop sucking up and live your life as it is? Now that would be a miracle ;)

* * *
My yellow man.
Homer ma man; suddenly I'm feeling all tied up.
Any funny advice? :(

Oh curse you homework.

Day Forty-One: You're nothing but a heartache.

2009-01-19T02:28:00.000-08:00

Mom's birthday was filled with glee. (=

I won't go in detail 'cause I'm not like her you see.
(+ it's slc's style of makingherselflookstupid blogging.)

* * *

The pressure I'm having now on studies is too much.
Am I not studying hard enough? =/
I need mi Homer.

Oh finally, Hi Homer.
- is that your toothbrush?

Day Forty: The woman of my life

2009-01-18T08:04:00.002-08:00

Oh Homer!! It's my mom's birthday today- 19th of Jan
Meet mi mom/bestfriend;

She rocks like.no.mother.
Happy 42th Birthday mummy dearest<333333
I love you

Day Thirty-Nine: down the drain

2009-01-18T03:52:00.000-08:00

Dearest Homer-
Maybe today is just plain bad luck for most February teenagers.

=/